It’s how I feel. A maelstrom in my head, every day and in every way.

I’m depressed. Have been since I’ve been back, no doubt.

I burn.

There’s so little for me here. So bored all the time. With people. With this place. I’m restless, waiting for the next grandness. I can’t sit still. I can’t wait around and just let Time go.

A life worth living: all I want.

I think I may try to move to australia or new zealand.