but it’s cold

Very cold. Absurdly cold. So cold I don’t want to do anything. -20 degrees with -50 windchill, or something like that. It’s made me lazy today. And cold. So cold.

I don’t feel well. I suppose I feel quite unhappy. I think that’s normal.

The Great Beauty is a beautiful and great film that I watched last night. I have more to say about it but I feel cold, unhappy, and lazy. I think it’s my favorite film I’ve watched so far this year. It begins with bombast and over the top lifestyle but becomes so much more. It’s funny and cutting and sweet. Though it’s about a lonely, aged, unhappy writer, it feels like love. It’s a film about loving life, though it seems at times ambivalent about living. It feels very close to me and it just manages to capture a great deal of beauty and humor and fun.

I watched Frances Ha the other day too, and I both enjoyed it and didn’t like it. I think I talked about it already, but maybe not. It also reminds me of life. The Talented Mr Ripley is what I watched today and it was pretty interesting, especially seeing how it treats consequence. I’ve never really seen a film that just goes for the darkness and lives there. I think it’s the ending Breaking Bad should’ve had, though, I mean, it’s hard to compete with that show, and it ended pretty well.

The wonderful Jazmyn Mares sent me the artwork for the graphic novel I’m going to write and I’m very excited. I should be writing it relatively soon. Hopefully even this month. It’ll be a beautiful thing, and she sent me awesome art to work with.

I don’t know. I’ve had better days.

My body feels weak.

I feel weak.

But we need to keep moving forward. Hopefully I can get to AWP this year.

I also think I’m going to learn how to make my own cover art for a novella I want to publish soon. Who knows if I’ll ever actually do anything with that, but I’m going to try to teach myself something useful.

13 angels screaming at the mountain

is going to be the name of my next novel, which is going to be a giant monster novel that stretches over about 150 years, I think. Maybe more. It should be a great deal of fun to write, and I think it’ll start sort of as a comedy, then move into existential horror, because monster movies are never really about the monster. They’re about us, and what it means to be human in a world that doesn’t want us.

Or at least that’s how I see everything.

So it’s going to be surreal and hectic and probably sort of insane, but there will also be an enormous mountain of light and thirteen angels screaming, so there’s at least that image to look forward to.

Watched Frances Ha last night by Noah Baumbach and I sort of hateloved it. Noah Baumbach is one of my favorite american directors, but I really didn’t like Greenberg, and this was sort of a mix for me. Sometimes I hated it and sometimes I loved it, but I think that means it was successful, given how Baumbach loves to push awkward at the viewer. It’s definitely worth seeing, even though it’ll frustrate you and the rent prices of New York will amaze you. She was paying almost as much for one room as I do for an entire house.

Got a few new freelancing jobs, which should provide consistent pay, which is great. Last month was pretty slow in that regard, but this month should be much better. I mean, it already is. And if the indiegogo gets funded, I’ll basically be healed from my tragic money problems.

Speaking of, we’re coming to the end of the campaign and there’s still a way to go. So do anything you can to help out. Get yourself some rewards, spread the word, share the link, whatever. I would greatly appreciate it.

Already the response has been so amazing and I can’t begin to thank everyone for doing so much for me. It’s been an amazing gift to know how beautiful you all are, and how kind the world can be.

But, yeah, please spread the word and get yourself some amazing rewards. Every single one of these is something I would buy without hesitation, so you won’t be disappointed by anything in there.

Thank you, and I love you.